07.14.07
A Letter About Healing and Faith
This is a letter I sent to a man working to heal his body. It felt important on a global level, so here it is.
“After seeing you in the hospital yesterday I got to reflecting on your situation this morning.
You’ve had surgery to cut out large masses of cancer. You’ve undergone chemo, and utilized various natural means of healing from EFT, to the Yuen Method, to various energy work. You’ve even had an astrological consultation and other recommendations. You gotten advice from doctors, alternative health practitioners and listened to your own inner guidance. You’ve told me that the medical community is running out of options, which is why you are now putting more emphasis on the “alternative” options.
Here is what I see when I see you. I see life strong in your being. I see a man who has become and is becoming very clear in his mental, emotional, and spiritual realizations. When I look at you, I don’t see the mental, emotional, and spiritual issues blocking your way any more. This is based on my first encounters with you however many years ago we’ve known each other. Sometimes you can look at a person and they just look dead and unresponsive or resistant inside. I do not see this when I look at you.
The level where I intuit the lack of response feels purely physical now. I see your body not responding to the rest of your being. It is as if, there is something in your body that is running the show, and it is not you. There is an intelligence (which is not wise) that has decided to direct the processes of your physical being and doesn’t really have any wisdom, so it just keeps doing things on autopilot because it doesn’t know any better, and there is no one there to stop it and say “Hey, you don’t know what your doing, so quit. I’m taking over.” It’s as if for some reason the wisdom you’ve accumulated and allowed to harmonize your mental, emotional and spiritual levels, you have not yet allowed to reach your body, or have not directed it there yet. Reclaim your power on all levels, the physical included.
As I sat out on my porch in the cool weather this morning watching the clouds, my attention turned back to you. Melissa came out and sat with me and I explained what I have shared with you above. I told her about your comment about discovering a certain mushroom that is purported to cure cancer, and that when you brought the information to the attention of a pharmacist, his response was “vague” as you said. You also expressed your lack of faith in herbal remedies etc, since everyone and their brother claims to have a cure from the herbal world. (Which I whole heartedly understand.) That got me thinking.
There is a story in Autobiography of a Yogi (http://www.answers.com/topic/autobiography-of-a-yogi-chapter-32) about a man being healed from a fatal condition.
This story has often been in my mind when I reflected on healing. I always wondered how was it that some improve rapidly at the simplest thing yet others can try every treatment know and get no results. I’ve used many techniques with people in my practice. Each time it occurred more and more often that the techniques were helpful but ultimately there was something central to the process in those who responded easily. Technique was secondary. When I would work with individuals I simply “knew” what was bothering them would resolve. Then it would. When I would have off days and the knowing was faint, the work was also faint. The knowing was not an intellectual knowing. It was a feeling of truth. The same feeling one has when they say, “I can drive a car” or “I can tie my shoes”. If they are competent in those skills there is no question in their mind about the ability for the desired result to drive the car or tie their shoe laces. It just happens when they make the decision and take action for it to occur.
When you mentioned the idea of this mushroom with cancer healing properties. I felt that it could have worked for you, yet you went on to say you showed the information to a pharmacist who gave you less than glowing results. It occurred to me today, that this is your way of feeding your doubt and destroying your faith. Why do you do that?
Melissa asked me what I thought you needed. I sat quietly and reflected. I remembered that earlier during a meditation the idea came to mind that you needed to get your soul back into your body. (Put your soul in charge of the processes. Accept the soul power to direct the life and processes of your body. Decide what your body needs, don’t worry about how it will happen, make the decision, then open your body up to the power of your eternal spirit (which has infinite life supporting intelligence) to make the changes.) She sat reflectively and said that what came to her was that you needed determination. I agreed. Of course you’ve been determined. Really, who wants to die? But when she said it, what I took her to mean was you need to look straight ahead to your goal, not look to the left, right, or behind you and go straight ahead doing what ever you need to do as you are guided from the core of your being.
Think about it this way…I went rock climbing a month or so ago without ropes. I wasn’t too high up, but high enough it would’ve hurt like hell if I fell. Suddenly I freaked out. I thought “shit, I’m going to fall.” My body tensed and I couldn’t think straight. Immediately I said to my self, “GO!” and I willed myself up that rock. I could feel my muscles burning and when I got to the top my adrenaline was going crazy. I knew I was going to fall, yet I also knew that I could make it with single pointed determination. Suddenly I found the holds I needed that I couldn’t see before, and my legs were filled with strength that I felt failing earlier. I didn’t know how, and it didn’t look good, but suddenly all my faith and will were set on making it to the top of that rock, and I did.
It also occurred to me that listening to other peoples prognosis (the mushrooms are iffy, your lungs are getting worse, etc) short circuited your power and determination. You need to quit listening to other people, and start listening to yourself. (You’ve been doing that more and more, but now is the time to give it all you’ve got!) Your faith is your own. Your responsibility is your own. Listen to yourself only (Your real self). You know what you need. Quit allowing the doubts and confusion of other (probably spiritually unaware) folks to condition your life. YOU ARE IN CHARGE! There is no dishonor in that, and there is nothing wrong with knowing that.
I’ve struggled with idea of faith and healing, yet everytime it comes back to that. When I speak of faith, I’m not talking about a belief, something you hope is true, I’m talking about state of complete certainty. That is where the change comes from.
Matthew 17:19-20 “Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, ‘Why could we not cast it out?’ He said to them, ‘Because of your little faith. For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Cliche cliche cliche…I know…but there are reasons for cliches, no?
Luke 17:5-6 “The apostles said to the Lord, ‘Increase our faith!’ The Lord replied. ‘If you had faith the size of a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you.’”
The funny thing about all this, is that faith comes not from a savior or saint (although it can temporarily for a time) it comes from life itself, the life that is within you. It comes from your own self. The infinite life of which we are all intimately a part of. Jesus knew this. Lahiri Mahasaya knew this. You must know this. Get over any mental garbage or dogma or beliefs or conditioning that gets in your way of being like Jesus or any other spiritual master and accept your power. (Mental garbage includes: The masters are special, I’m not worthy, its too hard, etc. etc. etc.)
That’s it for now.
